thanks from skinnybutnotrich re: confussed about weight

[skinnybutnotrich]

Thanks to all who responded to my thread. Sorry if I said some things which were out of order.

I spoke to beat and I went to see my doctor. I have a long way to go. I see my eating disorder/disordered eating as part of me. It isn't something that's the result of something bad which happened to me in the past or a response to being unhappy. It's just part of me. That's how I am.

It's something which I like & something which I hate. I like because it gives me a buzz & a sense of control, & I hate because I wish I could be rid of it. Like a layer of me I can take off & leave behind.

I just hope that someone else who is in the same situation as me reads this. Getting help is terrifying. But at the same time I feel that it is giving me some sort of independence & freedom.

I won't be on mummsnet for a while. I've got some things I need to do.

I did not see you thread but good luck hun, you have made the most important step of admitting you need help, now you are more than half way.

Good luck, hope you are happy soon. x

Wonderful news. I am so pleased you have asked for help, very brave of you. And you didn't say anything out of order, don't worry!
I know exactly what you mean. Nothing seemed to happen to trigger this pattern for me either. And yet I couldn't imagine life any other way.
But there IS so much more to life. I found it, so can you. All the very best.

Good luck.

I know exactly what you mean. It is an addiction after all.