CBT....I knew that it would be emotionally hard, but I have woken up feeling like I have been hit by a car all over again........is it normal to also hard physical symptoms????

[psychomum5]

...because if not, why does my body hurt like this??

My neck actually feels like I suffered whiplash yesterday! I had hoped a shower would help, but I seem to be getting tighter, not looser.....

I am finding all this quite tough, more so than I thought I would even tho I was warned. I guess I figured that they warn you worse case feelings but that wouldn;t be me as I only had car accidents, not some of the stuff others go thro.

and part of me feels as tho I am not allowed to feel like this either, so altho I said yesterday I don;t feel angry with the drivers anymore, I now feel very very guilty that I am allowing it all to effect my life in this way............however 'normal' she says I am/allowed to feel like this.

oh, and thankyou

You can do this, you have inner strength tucked inside - its the same strength you use to deal with all those stressful moments kids create
The fact you find it hard proves its working so have faith in yourself that CBT is right for you, if you found it easy then it would not be doing the job it should so for the next few weeks find some you time, delagate tasks to the kids, keep up the swimming and try to get a few walks in.
Keep your system boosted by eating well and ensure dh 'gets it' enough to pamper you.
The structure can also be good as unexpected surprises are less likely to happen and alot can change in 8 weeks.

aww jes.....'fanks.

altho why does everyone keep telling me it is a sign of strength...........not feeling all that strong right now.

I know, I know, you will tell me anyway, and I know (deep down inside in my logical part of me), that you are right........but I just wanna crawl into my pit bed and stay there a while.

Panic and strength can be one and the same you know good sleep is a reason to crawl into your pit of a night but you cannot lock yourself away, this will hang over you if you dont face it now after all the work is started and you never leave jobs half done just remember to use friends as needed to give extra naging strength as required.

don;t think friends have got much in the way of spare strength right now, feel bad asking.

I woke up ok this morning, but have taken a massive slide into grump now.....not least cos I saw aunty, and then flame came over but she not feeling 'up' either today so she went home, and I feel bad for not being able to help her.

ach, I think I will cancel next week.......I need time out. feel crappy and indesicive (sp?) and want to speak to other people rather than the cbt lady, if that makes sense.

sorry for being wiped out. think i'm still full of excessive hormones

I know........I think I am full of hormones to TBH.

still feel down tho.....

and DH is not off tomorrow after all either, so another

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Aww, psychomum5, I realy feel for you.

Being 'strong' comes in many shapes and sizes and sometimes allowing yourself to go through the bad days without feeling guilty is a part of that. So maybe you need to have a time when you curl up and cry, maybe your mind and body need that release.
I don't know why we expect more of ouselves than we would expect of friends so maybe you should try and look at yourself as a friend that needs your help and give yourself 'permission' to accept that you yourself don't feel strong at the moment, however others see you.

The AD issue is a very personal choice, but it is exactly that. A choice; so if you do decide to go on them you ARE taking control of your life, and not 'not coping' as you see it. It is crap that when we are vulnerable other issues bubble to the surface, I think we just get scrambled.

I went through two accidents, and I can say that it does get better, but that the more thoroughly it is dealt with, the more permanant the recovery is, if that makes sense. Loose ends have a habit of unravelling themselves..

I'm on very strong painkillers at the moment so am pain free and as high as a kite so i'll project you some of my strength, thinking of plugging myself in to the national grid for a few days!!!

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