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I have just joined and don't know which way is up-HELP

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madmax1961 · 17/09/2008 13:01

I have been searching the net this morning trying to find a forum to join that is non judgemental. I did belong to another called parentcentre which i would not wish on my worst enermy. My memtal health has been declining slowly over the last couple of months and in the last weeks i have gone downhill rapidy. I can no longer sleep,eat, speak to a real person or leave my home. I had a melt-down and spent 24 hours in hospital but because i was not a danger to myself(they reckon) or anyone else they let me go. I saw a cpn this morning but could not say anything to her as i just don't want to open my mouth and speak. I have my daughter at home who is in a state because her dad took her when i was in hospital and she is scared of him. She is now scared he is going to take her away again. It is a long story which i won't go into as i can not take another forum ganging up on me and laughing a physical/mental child abuse. I just don't know what to do for the best anymore. I even e-mailed the sameritians and got a patrinizing e-mail back so that was a waste of time it just made me feel worse. Sorry to go on but i have nobody to share any of this with as i am scared to being ground down any further as i don't think i could take one more thing. I am not even speaking to my family now because i just cry at everything and they hate me for being such a weak self-pitying person. Where do i go from here.

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singyswife · 17/09/2008 20:17

You still here???? How are you now???

madmax1961 · 17/09/2008 21:46

I am so screwed up i don't know if i am coming or going. I am fighting with myself over the medication. I feel so desperate to feel better i consider the tablets but i know that i will be giving in to the mind control and i really don't want to do it. It is a tug of war. Once i take the tablets again they have won. I don't want them to win i really don't. I just want to sleep but i can't.

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singyswife · 17/09/2008 21:57

What do you mean the tablets will have won. They are inanimate objects. I can see why you are resisting them so but trust me, they do work. They allow you to think straight so that you can start to sort yourself out. TRUST ME. Once they start to work you can start to tackle one problem at a time instead of the avalanche of them that you have now. Have a hot drink then go to bed and lie there. Just consentrate on nothing exept your breathing, dont do anything other than normal breathing and before you know it it will be morning. Your brain cannot think about two things at once so if it is concentrating on your breathing it is not running over things.

StealthPolarBear · 18/09/2008 19:50

Hope you are OK. The tablets are not mind control - they are just tools you should use at the moment to keep yourself on an even keel.
Did you try the CPN again? How about the GP - maybe she'll have got out of the right side of bed in the morning

madmax1961 · 19/09/2008 13:33

Thanks to those who replied to my thread it was much appreciated. My 2 sisters spoke to me last night and persuaded me to go back on the medication. I am not happy about it but accept i have to do it. It just feels like i have failed again but they say it is the right thing to do. I took my first lot last night and I SLEPT as soon as i went to bed and i have slept all morning as well.I know it is going to take a while as i am on a low dose at the moment but we will see what happens. That again to everyone.

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singyswife · 19/09/2008 17:32

Hi there. I am glad that you have found support in your sisters. Please keep talking to us too. Glad you had a good sleep, you can cope with most things if you have sleep. Take care

StealthPolarBear · 19/09/2008 19:02

so pleased to see this
you haven't failed- you've made a decision to take control

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