i'm in a bit of a mess...:
i had DS2 4 months ago. the continuous lack of sleep due to nightly BFin (5 times and more) lead to postnatal depression, anxieties and bad health in general at 6 weeks after the birth. my GP prescribed prozac, and i am starting councelling next week as i've had a hard time with birth of DSs and death of close family relatives as well as a lot of change in my life in generall...
when i was really really depressed i stopped drinking altogether, but as the prozac kicked in after 2 weeks i have gradually gone back to my old habits: drinking 2 standard glases of wine 4-5 nights a week... (DS2 now sleeps better at night, so there is a big gap between alcohol consumption and next BF.) i don't feel any side effects and i don't drink so much that i'll have a hangover the next day. but still, with the prozac and all, i'd like to drink less. instead it's getting more. it just helps me relax in the evenings. after a glass of wine i feel i'm truely myself, without worries, just chilled...
now, nobody would consider someone who drinks around 14 units a week an alcoholic, would they? but i think i might be in danger - i think about alcohol a lot: in the afternoon i start to look forward to the evening when i can drink, and i find it really hard not to drink one or two nights a week.
in my early twenties, as a student, i drank a lot, also on my own. i drank about two pints of lager every day of the week, at parties up to 4 pints... only getting pregnant stopped this. between having DS1 and DS2 i started drinking more again. again, only the pregnancy stopped me drinking alcohol. but how can i stick to a set limit of units, and not let it get out of hand (you know, an exception here and there, and suddenly you're drinking 6,7 days a week, 1 glass becomes 2 or 3). am i maybe borderline to being alcoholic?