Has this board taken over the 'feeling depressed board' because I can't find it...
Anyway I'm feeling so down today. I HATE where I live. I hate the house, it stinks of piss, I hate the area, I hate the people around me, the street is a shit hole with dirty nappies just slung into the road, stripped down cars etc...The local kids are getting worse, balls being kicked at the windows constantly, stuff being thrown at the car/in the garden...everytime I hear them playing out I become obsessed with them and sit there staring at them through the window to make sure they're not coming near our house. We have no money. Walking to school today my feet were wet and cold because I have holes in both of my boots and can't afford anymore. Most of my clothes don't fit properly.
Im trying so hard to get a job but I keep getting knock back after knock back. Either no jobs come up or when they do I either get ignored at the application process or turned away at the interview stage. I just feel totally trapped here, amongst the filth of this bloody estate.
If I don't move soon my son is in the catchment area of one of the roughest schools in the city which is putting more pressure on. But I can't move because most landlords won't take on LHA (or dss). No chance in hell of getting moved council wise...no houses available and nobody in their right mind would swap to live here. I was even told in the council office that I was wasting my time and had no chance of being offered anything.
I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle and all the time my kids are suffering because of it.