Lots of ranting really - very frustrated.

[smurfgirl]

Everything feels like it is going wrong in my life and I am struggeling so much, all I hear is everyone telling me its my fault - and even though everyone says they are not I know that the jist (gist?) of it is that it is. Everything that has gone wrong is all my fault because I am so stupid and useless.

And I don't want to cut anymore because it doesn't work, and I want some peace in my head which usually = overdose and as much as I want to its not terribly practical really and its all a bit of an arse to deal with and then there is the hassle to DP and its probably not big enough anyway.
I keep thinking that if I do something big enough to myself all the stress and everything will stop. I think about crashing the car when I drive. But its not a good idea is it really.
I am so tired of everything and everyone says they just want to help and support me but i don't feel any of it probably because I am a stupid knob.

[smurfgirl]

Oh you are right of course you are.

Hence my frustration at my stupidness. Ho hum.
Thanks for wise words x

[ScottishMummy]

right so hit the sack. i am offsky too

[Dior]

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[smurfgirl]

Dior - my concern is what do I do with a year off - no money, too much time to think and I am SO nearly there. I was doing a billion times better until I failed this placement its just sent me into a bit of a downward spiral tbh.

I feel a bit clearer this morning (afternoon!!). I slept a bit last night, thats been hard recently because its sticky and I keep thinking and my leg is really uncomfy and sore.

I feel like a knob because I know logically everyone just wants to help me, but I can't see why/let them - even typing this I can't see why.

Thanks for all the nice replies last night.

[Dior]

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