What is going on with me, i do this all the time. If he is stressed it stresses me out beyond anything that happens to me, if that makes any sense. It is not like he is going to come home behaving like an arse, he might be a bit quiet and short but thats it. But its ME, i go into a predictable cycle instead of just saying, there there dear, you have had a bad day, i start on the whole "well i told you not to do xyz" "why didn't you" over and over until he end up shouting and getting upset. Why can't i back off and grow up and realise that he might just want some help/ampathy than a stress pig of a DP.
So, he comes in having had a cock up at work, fetched something he needs to put it right, and moaned about what he had done and said he was pissed off, gave me a kiss and said he would be back soon, he wont be late cos he has had enough. So, theres not much wrong with that hey
So why do i feel: Sick, dry mouthed, heart racing, fingers tingling,like i want to crawl into bed and not get up, like i want to take some extra anxiety tabs that i have been prescribed but too frightened of side effects. Im already on citalopram.
What is going on with my head?? Its his problem not mine, he is entitled to share, but why do i make it OUR problem by acting like a three year old. Its like i get angry with him for causing me anxiety - poor sod. Help me to make him feel better tonight, not make him feel shitty like i normall do, then i end up feeling bad and start posting self pitying bullshit on here.