Just a random thought……
I have suffered significantly with my mental health over the years, last year I broke badly. I’m now well medicated, had therapy, and yes I still have to work hard on my mental health to keep it in check and I do still have bad days, but I’ve realised something. My GP has not so long ago said maybe I’ve had undiagnosed PPD that has just escalated and got worse because of life events……. I looked at her gone out, my child starts school soon and she’s suggesting this now?? What???
But…… now I think about it I was sooooooooo anxious and suffering with my nerves, having panic attacks etc…. When I went back to work after mat leave, I was really bad and thanks to a bad relationship period, buying a house, renovating a house, being a first time mum, a very traumatic death of a loved one things just got worse.
I had around 4 months off work and I worked hard on myself in that time……. And since I’ve been back again I realise I’m no where near the anxious wreck returning this time (been back since February), my home life is hard and it upsets me, work life is stressful, but I cope so much better! The down times pass, I have coping strategies, I can hold my own when it comes to dealing with my partner and other people - they may not like it or be used to it but it keeps me well!
im so much better than I was, even when I think I’m not, and that I am so grateful for