Struggling a lot this week. I left a 10 year emotionally abusive and manipulative relationship 6 months ago. Been feeling really proud of myself for leaving but also numb
Background is that I was left by my dad at 2 years old, sexually abused by father figure at 12 and then entered emotionally abusive relationship at 23. I had an eating disorder from 13 til about 25 and think that's what got me through as pathetic as that is to admit.
I've left the relationship and had loads of counselling, I just have nights of feeling a complete burden I'm terms of how life has been and relying on people for support, and feeling it will never work out with anyone. I was really promiscuous from 16-22 after what happened and just hate myself for it. Feel no one will ever respect or love me enough for me to end up happy. Feel conflicted for leaving as I'm not just making myself unhappy. Just don't know what to do, I feel okay a lot then hugely insecure and upset at other times.