Feeling overwhelmed after family trauma and struggling badly in a new job

[Dogbestfreinds]

It’s been a rough year and I think i might be breaking.

First off I found out my sister was SA by my uncle, then we did a week in court, not the outcome we wanted but the best we was getting.

My dad then went no contact with me cause I stood by my sister (we don’t have the same dad)

Decided to take on a new job cause anxiety was bad, started 6 weeks ago and honestly I’ve spiralled so quickly, I’m not sleeping, not eating, having panic attacks that are making my whole body shake. I keep thinking about running away, no idea where just getting away from it all.

I’ve tried to speak to family, they aren’t supportive and tell me to just snap out of it.

in 2015 I suffered really badly with MH had voices in my head, I’m so so scared I’ll go back there if this mood doesn’t improve.

I need to leave this job it’s not for me and knowing that is making me feel physically sick. I know my mum won’t be happy about it either cause it’s her friend I work for.

feel like a failure, just want to be supported yet feel so alone

Oh you poor thing. Your first step is an emergency GP appointment I think, hunker down today and contact them first thing tomorrow. If family aren't supportive do you have any friends who could help? As for work, do you think it's actually the job, or is it that any job is too much right now?

I’ve got an emergency appointment at out of hour this morning. I feel anything is to much for me at the minute