I have been feeling insecure and inferior for years and couldn't stop it any way. The main source of this problem is my body. I'm a slim man and this affects me quite badly. I have lost my identity due to it. I'm neither as pretty as a woman nor as muscular and big as a man.
I really don't know what kind of creature I am!!
Women and girls are torturing me! When I see them, I feel so insecure that sometimes suicidal thoughts come to my mind! They threaten my identity and put my existence under question. I'm inadequate and small.
I usually don't go out to avoid seeing people because when I saw them, they ruin my mental health! I have to go back home and cry! I wish I hadn't been born! I envy other men! They look like a proper man, big, muscular, heavy and strong!
Sometimes I envy my own car! It is so big and heavy! It doesn't feel inferior in front of other cars. It has power and confidence. I envy it! I wish I was a car :((
This feeling of inferiority is killing me! I can't do anything anymore! I hate myself! I think I don't deserve anything because I'm not a human being.
I just want to listen to music and sleep all the time. I don't have a life! I can't go out. I can't work, I can't have friends, I avoid seeing people! They make me look like crap! I believe at this point, my life needs to come to an end. I have lived enough and don't need to continue suffering like this.