Just wanted to come on here to vent.
I live in Texas and we are a military family. I'm just..tired. We've been here for a year and honestly I hate it here. Granted, we were in AL before that and I hated it there too. We are west coast people and We just don't mesh with the south lol
We have another year here and I am so done. I am in perimenopause, I'm on HRT and recently my Obgyn Upped my hormones..and I had to lower it again because I've been super emotional, but I'm doing better now. My son has been sick for 4 weeks (he's been to the doctors, and is on antibiotics for a sinus infection). I am a social worker and I have a job that I don't care for, but I've been a SAHM for the last 5 years taking care of my special needs son and I feel like the jobs around here hold it against me..and all that work I did to build up my resume and experience before I became a mom was for nothing because the people around here don't believe that I did those things (Seriously, TX has some serious trust issues). I can't get supervisor references because either some have retired or its been more than 5 years and they send me to HR, who never call me back. I've been looking for PT work for MONTHS and this was the only job I got and I practically begged for it by pouring myself out to the boss in the interview, not really realizing what it was. My only reasoning to having the job is to show me working on my resume. I also have student loans to pay, and my husband is telling me he would support me quitting, but I tell him he doesn't get it. I feel like I don't have a choice, because I need to show I am working in hopes of getting a better job later ((I'm a therapist) and the extra money is helpful. I'm also still being a SAHM and working in the evening.
I usually lean on horses to get through thd rough part of the military life..I recently lost my gelding and shopping has not been great. The people around here don't care and don't mind wasting my time and money, because I have to drive to see/try them. I do work out to help relieve stress. I don't have any friends here.
I am trying to make it all work. I'm just mentally and emotionally exhausted. I do have a therapist for myself to talk to about this stuff. Thanks for listening.