I had an abortion at the beginning of the year and it was a mutual decision between me and my partner. We both don’t live together and also live 2hrs apart so only see eachother on weekends at the moment. So really the abortion was a non negotiable. Ever since the abortion, I have felt so anxious constantly incase it happens again as it is really something I never want to go through again. I sometimes feel so guilty because it’s something that I never wanted to have and I just wish that I had fallen pregnant a few years down the line rather than now when I am not ready. I have spoken to my partner about this and he will always say that it doesn’t matter as the baby wasn’t formed properly etc etc as I had the abortion when I was 7 weeks pregnant. I started taking the desogestrel pill a week after my abortion and I think it could be this which has made my mental health/ anxiety worsen. I stopped taking desogestrel 4 weeks ago however my mental health has since worsened. I am now experiencing panic attacks and anxiety daily particularly around incase it happens again. I have been to my gp about this and they advised taking sertraline however I declined this. I have self referred myself to counselling however this is also a really long waiting list.
i am also experiencing really bad anxiety as I have still not had a proper period since the abortion so am not sure if this is why my emotions are all over the place. I stopped taking the pill 4 weeks ago and at present I am experiencing migraines and for the past 2 days have had dark red spotting in the toilet but no period. I am just wondering if anyone else has experienced the same as me as I just feel so alone. Abortion