Heeellp!
I have been on citalopram 40mg for just about a year now. OVer the past few weeks i have set out deliberately to be positive and overcome my depression. Despite a major stress on Friday i managed not to go down the self pity road i often go down. It was a bit of financial overdramatics and crap advice, which has turned into something positive.
Since then, and even a few days before the anxiety is back with a vengance. I wake up literally shaking and have to hang on to DP with my eyes shut until i feel safe. I am doing loads of ridiculous health checks (finger up the bottom being the latest sorry for the TMI, just wanting to illustrate the ridiculousness of it all). Getting irritated with DD being "in my face" she is going thorugh a scrambling all over me phase. Normally i would be revelling in the cuddles but have found myself pushing her away. Im hiding on mumsnet just now .
I did have some alcohol on friday night, surely i still wouldnt be suffering because of that, alcohol usually OK for me, i dont drink much at all.
I just feel like everything is "goig too fast" and that stuff is whoosing (literally) past my head. I'm terrified. I want to take DD out but im too agitated and afraid.
I am supposed to be doing a presentation at a school on Tuesday, to have a go, see if i might like teaching for a career - maybe that is why i am scared, but i felt really positive after the meeting with my old supervisor about it.
WHATS GOING ON????? I think im pre menstural (have a marina coil and spotting)
Please help me, im trying to be positive, but im scared i'm losing the plot again.