This is a long post so I’ll try and shorten as much as I can. My husband was involved in a serious car crash 7 years ago that left him with a traumatic brain injury so he now lives in a property with carers 24/7 ( this is not my choice but they said it would be too much for me to take on and our property wasn’t suitable for his needs ) I have Bipolar and have been on medication for 16 years which has helped me for the majority of the time, however after the accident I suffered with PTSD which triggered everything with my bipolar. I had counselling but to keep reliving it made it worse. Our daughter was two when the accident happened so I stupidly didn’t think as she got older she would ask questions and the whole thing has given her massive anxiety issues ( that we are getting help for ) then last year my son had an eye appointment at the hospital as he was referred regarding his headaches and eyesight - within 24 hours of being there he was blue lighted to another hospital as they had given him a CT Scan and MRI and found a brain tumour which they removed immediately. I had a job in the evenings but decided to change to a daytime one as a dinnerlady so I got the evenings back with my children. I felt my mental health deteriorating again but carried on working but I just stand at work crying and preoccupied with my thoughts. Last week I found out my Dad was terminally ill, we have never been close but I’m trying to build bridges. I have been off work for the last two weeks and explained everything to my boss who said to go back when I’m ready. The thing is I’m dreading it and it’s not because I don’t want to work I really do it’s just because I don’t know how to deal with how I’m feeling. I’m terrified of going to see a doctor as everything has given me crippling health anxiety. I know people out there are going through far far worse so please don’t think I’m wallowing in self pity. Sorry again for the long post.