Life is loooong

[EmeraldRoulette]

Can I just say

life is long and repetitive. And lonely.

Yes, I am looking for people to agree with me 😂

I just wanted to put that out there anonymously. Because Lord knows you can't tell people this stuff in real life!

yes I am Eeyore this evening

yes, I'll probably get hit by lightning tomorrow because I said that. We are apparently going to have lightning tomorrow. I do quite like lightning though.

Hey op, Eeyore is my spirit animal! I'm with you on the long and boring nature of life. I mostly use food and various telly shows/films as my anti-depressants.

Not got much advice really but yeah...quite monotonous and ground-hoggy!

I also like a good storm (though obviously not the people/buildings/cats getting crushed by trees aspect of it), so that will be cool.

Sorry Eeyore. It really is what you make of it, even in the hard times. Enjoy the lightening and if that doesn’t come find some else beautiful and simple to enjoy

@Alittlebitofthebauble yeah I can't use food at the moment and I cannot find any TV that's working for that

I could watch Downton Abbey again... I've watched that so many times but just nothing is working. Even Emily in Paris didn't cheer me up.

I hadn't thought about cats in storms!

@curious79 struggling to find anything there

I hope I'm not falling in the hole again 👀

@EmeraldRoulette, oh dear, I meant cars not cats! Am thinking about cats in storms now though?!

Know what you mean about telly not working for you, it's not a cure all. Would you do any type of sport or exercise? I don't do a lot but like swimming or long wallowy baths with a book.

Have you ever seen Married at First Sight? The Australian version is brilliant. Very dramatic and makes me forget about life for a bit.

@Alittlebitofthebauble cars! Okay

So MAFS is not really my thing

I do normally exercise but I've had some issues so I haven't been able to. That isn't helping. I don't drive so I do all my errands on foot - just in case anyone was going to tell me to go for a walk! That's never helpful, but it's obviously part of my everyday life.

It is very long....the minute I turned 18, I felt as old as a 100 years old and thought: Shit. Now the adult endless shit is starting

After a huge amount of effort, I'm feeling as if the lack of friends thing has come back around

And I need some help with stuff, but I have no one to ask

And I need to work on my loss of confidence - but the whole thing just goes round in circles

I have a very strong sense of déjà vu - repeating a lot of experiences that I've had before

But sometimes life does that. Annoying and boring. I just always hope it's not too long. My poor elderly mother is a great example of why it shouldn't be long. It feels long already. Goodness knows how she feels. (well, I know, but I've banned her from talking about it in front of me because I don't need to be made any more depressed)

I hope this isn't too outing

When I was 18, a class teacher asked what I wanted to do next and I said "retire".

some parts of my life have gone very quickly

I always think that is so great, because it means things are going well.

When I'm in one of these phases, I feel very "are we there yet?"

Wait, I am 49 now and just thought: Shit, I have another 18 years of working before retiring and God knows would I ever will have the money to retire? So I must perhaps have to keep working into my 90s !!!!

lol, my husband was a primary school kids and his favourite future occupation was retirement and his favourite thing to do, is go home, have snack and have a nap 😃

Please save if you're in a position to save

I know people get angry on here when it's mentioned

But if you can save, it's totally worth it! i'm also a person who cannot even buy coffee on the way to work - I just can't spend the money - and that is a very good thing!

I do save everything I can. But as my experience with careers and jobs have been shit....I think I had a deja vu what my future adult life would be.....sometimes I don't have jobs, sometimes I do

If you had a childhood illness like me and spent life into hospitals, etc etc ...of course you would be worried what your future life would be....my child also has had various health issues which occupied a big part of my 30s and early 40s and we still have things going on with her like education and what can happen to her now in the future....life is hard for some and this is why some of us do get annoyed at it and find it boring, long and filled with endless health maintaining chores

@HasDepth I think a lot of us who feel like this had childhood health problems, I had that as well

Continued into my 20s, I've actually never thought too much about this but it will have a link to depression

I try not to moan, but sometimes it's good to have a moan!

It is a forum like any other and anonymous....the fact you think like me it is looooong is actually a sign of robust sense of humour and definitely this is a bonus

Life feels to me like a party I forced myself to go to, but secretly didn’t much want to attend. Now I’m here, I’m sneaking constant glances at the clock to see how soon I can reasonably leave. I just want to extract myself from it as soon as seems decent, and go home.

I don’t rate human consciousness at all.

I do like the party analogy and I’d add to to it that as you age - I’m early 60s- the fact that younger people with louder music and different ways of communicating all add to the sense of being in the wrong place, of being out of place.

I've just contributed to a couple of threads on here that reminded me of this one

I think I'm feeling better but my cortisol and anxiety seem to be high. So I basically moved from feeling very low to feeling very anxious. Fun.

@Bonden your post reminds me of the song "is it any wonder?" by Keane. "sometimes I get the feeling that I'm stranded in the wrong time, where love is just a lyric in a children's rhyme"

However - my very young ex-boyfriend really liked that line! I don't feel particularly out of place among young people but I do feel out of place among people my own age. I suspect this is something to do with being child free.

isolation has been a big factor this week. (And in case anyone chimes in with silly suggestions, I can't try to fix it anymore, that really will make me lose the will to live, there's only so long you can keep flogging that horse)

It's been a very slow week though. That doesn't help.

I think I'm feeling better. Ups and downs.

I’ve been feeling this a lot today.

This.

I'm convinced the universe is in one of those funny spaces

I think a lot of people are feeling like this.

I can definitely relate to this. I realised recently that at 41 I have been working (sometimes part time while studying) for 25 years now…and that depressingly I have another 25 years plus to go before I can retire.

I find life an oxymoron, as it goes very quickly, but feels long 🤯
In one way the last few years have whizzed by, but it also feels like I've been here ages, and have far too long to go.
I guess time has become distorted, and it's not linear anyway?
I suffer terribly with my mental health (or lack thereof) and find it hard work being here every day. But, I plough on. I used to think I'd recover and thrive for the rest of my life. After over 30 years of living with this condition (OCD) I now know it's about management not recovery; and the thought of a few more decades of this is overwhelming. Yes, for me, with my mental health challenges, it's too long. I don't fear leaving this place and returning to whence I came.