For context I have heard from several different doctors about what I may or may not have, some say its bipolar others say its scizoeffective, and others think i dont have anything. Anyways ive been having auditory amd visual hallucinations since I was around 14 years old, I am 21 now and im slowly realizing the world has no place for me. Ive had two jobs my entire life, both ive had to leave due to my mental health. I often forget my own face, what I sound like, and often forget im even real. My girlfriend has been an excellent support for me but im worried its not enough. Ive already disappointed my family once going to the hospital, I do not wish to disappoint them again, but lately things have gotten worse. My hallucinations have gotten worse, I keep hearing screams coming from outside my window, people standing in my closet, corners of my home, and I cannot stop hearing things until I fall asleep. I focus my attention on things I enjoy, video games, tv, etc, but even then ive slowly started feeling as if ive grown bored of all of that. I dont have a bank account, I dont have a job, I cannot drive, and im really needing some advice on of things are ever going to get better.