Sectioned but shouldn't be

[MrsBenedict]

I'm in such a mess, I got sectioned this week because they think I'm in psychosis but I'm not. I have been before and accept that but it feels different this time, I feel completely fine.

I'm on 2:1 so there's 3 of us sat in this small bedroom and it feels so claustrophobic. Nobody is listening to me and because I stopped taking my meds a week ago my psychiatrist says on Monday they are going to start giving me my meds by injection against my will. I can't focus on anything except that, I'm terrified, I cant escape.

Sweetheart, your DH and the medical staff are seeing a different person to the one you are seeing. And they are all worried about you.

If the current medication is right for you, talk to them about alternatives. But it sounds like you need something.

Which meds were you on OP?

Thinking angels are talking to you is not being clear headed. Let the hospital do what they need to do.

Haloperidol and lithium.

The staff are amazing here. I’ve been here before and most of them have been here for years. But being on 2:1 is very claustrophobic.

They gave me my meds by I’m against my will last night. I fought it but I wasn't strong enough enough. the angels are absolute furious and it is deafeningly loud in my head. now my body has poison in it and I can feel it in my blood.

By IM* that should say (by injection) it took 5 of them to hold me down and I just couldn’t fight them off.

You will feel better when the medication starts to kick in, OP. You know that they will force you if you don’t take it voluntarily so there is no point fighting it. I know it is awful having your autonomy taken away but it really is for your own good. I’ve been in a similar situation and it is awful so I understand partly how you feel.
Try to rest and not worry too much. The staff and your family are all on your side, even if it doesn’t feel like it at the moment. xx

Oh my lovely. The voices should quieten down with the meds. Then you can talk to the medics about what you want. Not the voices. I promise you that they aren’t trying to poison you. Everyone wants you safe and well.

They're not just voices, I can see the angels they're actually here. And they're furious I've been given meds.

Im sorry. I misunderstood. The medics want you to be well. You really mustn’t suddenly stop these meds. I hope things are quieter soon.

Thank you. My head feels like it’s on fire at times. The angels are so angry and shouting all time.

Your medication will kick in soon and it will go away op. Don’t worry. You are in the best place. And having the care you need to get back to healthy.x

The angels don’t want to be sent away, they have work they need me to do.

You only need to do what you want to do. Focus on listening to your own voice. What hobbies do you have OP.

I have hobbies but I can’t concentrate on anything, I like crafty things, DH packed me books colouring in and cross stitch but my mind is too busy.

I want to get off 2:1 but the doctor laughed when I asked so that’s not a good sign.