Sectioned but shouldn't be

[MrsBenedict]

I'm in such a mess, I got sectioned this week because they think I'm in psychosis but I'm not. I have been before and accept that but it feels different this time, I feel completely fine.

I'm on 2:1 so there's 3 of us sat in this small bedroom and it feels so claustrophobic. Nobody is listening to me and because I stopped taking my meds a week ago my psychiatrist says on Monday they are going to start giving me my meds by injection against my will. I can't focus on anything except that, I'm terrified, I cant escape.

Why did you stop taking your meds?

Is there anyone, such as a partner or parent, who knows you are there?

Because the angels told me they’re poisoning me. I could feel the poison under my skin.

DH started everything to get me in here, I begged him to keep me home but he and my psychiatrist worked together to get me in.

I'd suggest you start taking your meds again. If they do poison you - you're in a hospital, it's the best place to get the antidote, should you need it. You can always ask them to confirm they know what to do if you show signs of toxicity.

OP I know it's very scary, and I know you have alot of feelings about what's going on, its hard when you feel like nobody is listening to you.

However people who are experiencing psychosis often don't realise it in the moment - it's only once you get well again that you can see the situation clearly.

I would recommend stepping away from Mumsnet though - maybe find some light-hearted comedy shows or something to help keep your mind distracted

They must be very worried about you, having 2 to 1 care isn't that common.

Get well soon

Have you discussed different meds then? Although it is actually quite common to feel that meds aren't quite right, it just means you need to stay on them longer until your body adjusts to them. Most side effects eventually disappear.

Your DH did the right thing. You need professional help. Hope you start to feel better soon.

I know you feel fine but those meds shouldn’t be suddenly stopped. They are keeping you safe. Is there anything nice you’re able to do.

I can’t concentrate on anything and I’m worried the tv can read my mind so I can’t watch it. The staff are being lovely, they are reading to me.

I’d suggest this statement is a good indication you should be taking yours meds, or need a medication review.

I'm glad that the staff are being lovely. They care about you and want you to feel safe and well.

Hope that you are enjoying whatever it is they are reading. It is so, so hard to pass the time when you aren't feeling up to concentrating. Especially if you are stuck in a small room. Are there any games around? A pack of cards perhaps?xxx

It does sound like hospital is the best place for you at the moment. I’m really sorry you’re feeling distressed but hopefully you’ll feel better when they’ve sorted your meds for you. Wishing you all the best.

How lovely that they are reading to you. Is there anything else that you like doing that you can do? I can’t always concentrate well to read but I like audiobooks and craft things.

I like to colour whilst I listen to audio book.

If you agreed you should be sectioned then err you wouldn’t be sectioned. Thats kinda inherent in the whole being sectioned thing that you’d disagree with it otherwise it’d be an informal admission.

You have rights of appeal which you should have been informed about and you are entitled to an advocate (IMHA) to help you appeal. that’s the right way to go if you really feel it’s wrong.

OP, the way to come off your meds is very, very gradually so that you don’t go into withdrawal. Take your prescribed dose because that’s the safest thing for you to do, but also talk to your medical team about the side effects and how you might reduce or change your meds safely if that’s what you want.

I’m saying this with kindness but if you can’t see this is psychotic thinking you really are in the best place and need to re start your meds.

I'm so stressed because they've told me on Monday they'll start to give me meds by injection forcefully if I resist. Which I will, because I'm not going to let them poison me. I don't know if I'm strong enough to fight them off. I don't know what I'll do it if they really do it, I'm hoping they're just calling my bluff to try and trick me into taking my meds myself.

You really, really need to be where you are, op…
Hope you’re better soon.

You are unwell at the moment and you do need your meds, if you don't want to take a tablet then I think an injection would work, it might be a depot which is not every day. I know it's hard but you are surrounded by people who care about you, do you like to paint or draw, social media isn't always the best way to distract yourself.

Honestly OP, if you come off your meds it will harm you to do it suddenly. Believe me, I know about this. Take them as prescribed but discuss a different regime with your medical team. Long term it is perfectly possible you could be free of them but for your safety only do it with medical supervision.

If you are thinking the tv can read your mind then you are not thinking clearly. It's not sentinent, and it's definitely not more able to read minds than someone with an actual mind.

I am so very sorry you’re so stressed. If you let them restart your meds then maybe you can discuss tapering off them safely or switching to something else? They do really have your best interests at heart. It may feel scary right now but you’re safe.

I stopped taking them last Friday and I’m now feeling clear headed and don't want that to stop. Nobody's listening to me, I don't want to be on any meds, the angels say I dont need them and they're poisoning me.

Thank you all for being nice to me

This is very sad. But you are safe. You are loved. And you are going to get through this

Gently I think you should trust the staff, who have your best interests at heart.