Anyone else just sick and tired of being ill? I have bipolar (diagnosed in 2018) and have been up and down up and down for years pinging backwards and forwards to the mental health team.
I’ve been under them again for 6 months this time after I was suicidal. They prescribed antidepressants which sent me high so I came of those cold turkey which ruined Christmas and then had a big crash which is still ongoing. My meds were increased which was helping but then I got really bad side effects so had to reduce again.
It just feels like one step forward two steps back and that it’s never ending. I’m nearly 50 and my life is a mess. I’m overweight because of my meds and can’t afford weight loss injections, up to my eyeballs in debt but working with Christian’s Against Poverty so at least it’s under control, will be homeless in three years because of the terms of my divorce. I just feel a massive failure.
Anyone else feel like this and if so how do you deal with it.