I have an intense fear of pregnancy and I don’t know what to do as we want another baby.
I’ve seen tokophobia mentioned but I’m not scared at all of birth just the pregnancy part.
The reasons are that mostly I don’t like how I feel I don’t cope well with feeling different. In my pregnancy with my daughter I felt like my body wasn’t mine. I had panic attacks because I felt so unwell. I didn’t like the changes I felt out of control , I had an eating disorder for many years so I think partly due to this but also I had HG and really struggled.
I also experienced night terrors. I was pregnant last year and had to terminate due to the tokophobia. I’m on a waiting list for CBT but I don’t know if that will help.?
Has anyone overcome this ? I feel petrified . I keep waking up in a panic every night that I can’t do it and I get so upset as I’m terrified but then I desperately want another baby and I don’t know how to sort this out. The termination was awful as I didn’t want to but it felt like a full body and mind rejection of the pregnancy and then immediately after a massive regret .