How do you even get over situational depression

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I know the cause (trapped in current job with toxic work environment, bullying, and unable to find any new job) but until I miraculously find a way to leave my situation how do I find a will to live? I have been quite patient, but years late and my life situation hasn’t changed, only seems bleaker now. I don’t have much motivation to live if life is this hard

Sign off sick if suicidal
but that could affect getting new job

get a lodger or other money saving / making and take lower paid job
retrain for a new job

volunteering is a habit of happy people
exercise - walk in nature
medication
therapy
keep real life social connections

make formal complaints and change work environment?

Either leave the situation or find coping strategies to change how you feel about and react to the situation. Therapy would be useful for either option but especially the latter.
Good luck, don’t despair x

Yeah I can’t take risk of ruining my chances of landing new job, genuinely feel like it’s the only thing that could give me something to live for

I’m willing to take any job that pays at least 29k, it would be very tight as I live in London but even that feels less achievable as time goes on.

I currently work at a very well known company (don’t know if working at a big names counts for anything these days?) but I thought at the very least it would increase my chances of landing an entry level job but still no one wants to give me a chance.

volunteering, exercise, therapy, socialising etc are all great things I’d agree, but currently I have no energy to eat when hungry, or shower daily, and I only go the loo when bursting because I’ve no energy

You might need antidepressants to lift you out of your slump OP. It’s impossible to move forward when you are struggling with ever basic daily tasks. You would feel more positive too as you are obviously really suffering at the moment.
Would it help to get signed off for a few weeks too? I doubt that will affect your career and you might feel more able to face the job again after a rest and the ADs getting into your system.

You have to start small and build from there. Frame it as you taking charge of the situation and not ‘it’ taking charge of you and your life.
For example, if showering daily isn’t happening (your post infers you think it should) then have a sink wash on alternate days, add in an extra shower here and there until you are back showering daily. Swap to easy to prep and eat foods - fresh fruit, porridge, microwave meals until you can eat more regular and sensible. Start small and build up. Exercise - start small a five minute walk maybe to buy milk? But walk a little each day and build on it.
see your GP, meds may help as well, and they may refer you for talking therapy.
On the work front, if you cannot change things in your current employment, revamp your cv, push those transferable skills, apply for other sectors and use any interviews as a learning opportunity.
small wins now will see depression slowly lose its grip in the long run.

Thanks guys I do appreciate your help, I’ve tried two types of antidepressants and felt nothing. Only alcohol and ket used to help me temporarily switch off in the past but it’s only a short term band aid, and obviously don’t want to rely on that. I still drink occasionally but have many sober weeks in between

I just can’t believe how bleak and hopeless my situation is. It’s been years of applying, so many revamped versions of my CVs but clearly each one is not good enough, years of desperate attempts to job hunt, some weekends I’ve been doing all nighters to spend on job applications until my eyes are burning from looking at the screen, cancelled many social plans, don’t go to the gym or do anything after work, because nothing matters until I can escape the hell of my current job.

Have spent most of the day crying and realised still haven’t eaten anything, a ready meal or meal deal is all I can face

I can imagine normal people most likely don’t spend this amount of time and effort on jobhunting, and normal people likely have much higher standards from a job but seems my experience is worthless

Spending long hours (anyone familiar with ASD hyperfixation will know I’m not exaggerating) yet still being unable to land an office job that pays at least 30k in London - how do you not feel hopeless and worthless after that? How can meds/therapy change that when you can’t find an escape

I am in a similar situation, looking for a job but not in a job. My situational depression is that I can’t leave my dysfunctional relationship until I’m financially independent.

I am on setraline and that helps me cope, as does exercise as then at least I feel in control of something.

Go back to your doctor maybe and ask to try something else ?

If it is at the point where self care is so hard (I am sorry that is where you are), write a timetable.

A4 sheet with days of the week across the top and the tasks you are aiming for down the left.

Tasks have to be really simple, broken down and manageable and spread across the week in a way that is manageable for you.

Eg goals for an “optimum” day would be:

Brush teeth

Eat / hydrate

30 mins exercise (indoors or outdoors)

Hydrate

Shower/bath/wash

Eat / Hydrate

See / talk to another human

15 mins relaxation music / meditation

Hydrate

Sleep early - reduce screen time

Etc

Spread them across your matrix and aim to achieve just maybe 3 tasks a day at first then increase as you get stronger.

It’s so hard. I hope you feel better soon 💐

I have tried at least 3 different types

It is trial and error . Go back and try another

Im in a monotonous and relentless job
Im also looking at applying elsewhere
I only have to deal with office stuff 2 days a week and wfh the other 3
Is wfh an option at all ? Would avoid the toxicity !
Things that make it more bearable for me - volunteering , gym classes , community craft group and forcing myself to see friends out of work - cook for each other !
These all boost my esteem / worth outside of work
Comedy TV and books are escapism too