I had an assessment with a therapist about OCD - I have had therapy before for anxiety but not specifically for OCD and intrusive thoughts that are more ‘out there’. I’ve always been hesitant to be honest about the thoughts that distress me as there is no rhyme nor reason for them, but they do cause me a lot of issues. I have always been worried the therapist will think I’m a total nutcase. I have a lot of intrusive thoughts about morality, about worrying I may have accidentally offended or hurt others in some way, and fears about doing something ‘wrong’. I worry a lot about legal things too, which means I avoid any documents that are legally binding or signing up to things, even websites, as I’m worried I will be taken to court over them. I also worry a lot about privacy and data online, and that someone may steal my identity etc.
I am not religious but one of my compulsions is going to the church and praying, as well as the usual checking everything again and again.
Another big worry of mine is potholes. I worry it wasn’t a pothole, but an animal, or even someone’s foot. If I get passed that, I over worry about the effect on the car. This was largely driven by a family member making a big yelping noise whenever I would hit one with him in the car. I don’t drive dangerously because of this or anything but I worry about it after. I told the therapist about this worry and now I’m worried they will report me and I won’t be allowed to drive anymore!
I am just worried I will be seen as a total crazy woman for all this and it will have repercussions for me. Any advice would be appreciated.