Feeling really down and hopeless

[Cusoch]

I've changed my name, I tried to contact Samaritans but their online chat is down and I can't phone anyone right now.

I'm feeling so incredibly hopeless, I just keep crying. Life is so hard, I'm in my 50s and it's always been so difficult and it just isn't getting any better.

I can't see the point in carrying on like this. I don't want to live another 30 years of this. I'm so tired. I don't belong anywhere, I don't really have any friends, my parents and brother don't care about me, nor my aunt and uncle. I feel so alone.

I can't see a way forward that isn't just more slog and unhappiness.

What's happening op? Here for a chat

85258 is the text number for SHOUT too

I'm just so tired. I have a disabled child and one who is sen and I had to give up work to look after them, I have hardly any real friends, I'm autistic, people don't seem to like me no matter how hard I try, everything is just so difficult and I'm so lonely. I have no prospects and I just can't do it all any more.

Ok. Thanks for sharing. SEN mum here too with a high needs DC so I can understand some of your struggles. Do you have any rl support? A partner? Its f*ing hard and you have 2 dc so no wonder its a struggle. Do you get sleep? Do you have any time for yourself?

Husband cooks and does food shop but I do everything else and he doesn't support me emotionally at all. We are like flatmates. My sleep is really bad at the moment, I wake early and I'm struggling with menopause. We have no support from anyone.

No wonder youre feeling down. Have you spoke to your GP for help with meds or therapy? Im sure dh is feeling it too. When you have disabled kids you forget sometimes youre a couple too! Try and talk to dh im sure he will understand more than you think

He really won't. He's completely useless in terms of emotions, I literally cry next to him in bed and he doesn't notice.

I understand men tend not to get it do they. Are you feeling any better today?