Feeling deep sadness, anxiety and despair

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I can’t really believe I’m posting on here as never had what I would describe as MH problems before.

for weeks now I have been feeling extreme anxiety and an impending sense of doom.

i seem to catastrophise everything- over the last few weeks i have convinced my self that i am very ill, despite test results coming back as fine, convinced myself i was in trouble at work, for no reason whatsoever, and worked myself up about an impending holiday, worried it is all going to go wrong. The holiday coming up soon should be the trip of a lifetime but i have had anxiety about travelling for a while now and im whipping myself up into a frenzy with all the things that could do wrong.

on Friday night and Saturday morning i felt deep deep anger towards my dh, despite the fact he hadn’t really done anything wrong. I ended up bursting into tears on him but couldnt really explain to him what was wrong. He is a bit baffled by me tbh.

i had a significant bereavement last year and thought i was Coping ok with it but maybe im not. I also think I could be perimenopausal as I am 42. My last period was 30 days ago and I have always been 28 days with a regular cycle so possibly that is why I feel so low, but this is unusual for me.

can anyone suggest what I should do to every begin to address these feelings?

Make a GP appointment. They should see you within a few days with those symptoms. They’ll talk you through how you’re feeling and offer options for what you could do, which could be anti-depressants or a counselling referral. Or something like a bereavement group.

If your employer has an Employee Assistance line then ring that (they’re often 24/7) in the meantime and they will offer advice and support.

I'm sorry you're feeling this way, it could indeed be perimenopause and hormones.
Our GP has a Women's Health nurse for questions re menopause and HRT. It might be worth checking if yours has the same.

Thank you.

i did have some bereavement counselling last year, about 5 sessions, but it was quite close after it happened, it was all a bit of a blur to be honest.

Firstly and most importantly, be nice to yourself and do NOT judge. It is normal and human to feel awful sometimes, and other people are the same, you are not alone.

Secondly, ask for help. Even if for a tiny thing if that's easiest. It will break the cycle.