Bit of a back story, I had a tough fertility journey which really took its toll on my marriage and myself. I had a miscarriage after two years of trying for a baby and ended up in A&E it was absolutely horrendous. I then managed to get pregnant three months after and I’m a mum to an amazing 16 month old. I had issues in that pregnancy too but super blessed and she is thriving.
However, I feel like my mental health has taken a battering over the past few years of my life. I also moved away from London and I’m a stay at home mum with no real support here.
Some strange things have been happening. Every few months I feel really down and not myself. When this happens all I want to do is curl up with a blanket and eat chocolate. Like I won’t even feel like my lunch because I’d rather have chocolate. If I have plans during this time I feel I can’t commit to them and I’ve even paid for things and left my house but then turned back home. This has happened a few times, I feel anxious and my hands feel weak and I simply can’t go to whatever it is I’ve booked.
It’s really horrible and I waste money and let people down. I only feel better when I get home and have a cup of tea and something sweet. Quite literally like a comfort blanket.
Has anyone experienced this? I’m not depressed all the time so it feels odd. I don’t know what to do as it’s making me scared to book bigger things like holidays. Would this have been triggered by my miscarriage and everything around that experience?