Disappointed when I wake in the morning

[Carlie97]

Because I hoped I would die in the night. I have health conditions and pray that they'll get worse and I might die. I have work stress that feels like it's never going to end. I do have a nice time at work often though. I massively overthink everything to do with work too and make up scenarios in my head where I've said something that day that was looked down upon and I'm going to be in the shit or where I play out what might happen about stuff im anxious about at work and get myself even more anxious. These never come true though but I'm stuck in a cycle. I want to spend a few weeks in hospital to be away from it all and to have a legitimate reason to be off work (annual leave all used).

No advice but solidarity. I feel just the same.

Sending you love.

You should consider quitting your job and going on benefits for a few months. You can get a higher rate if you are I'll. If it's making you wish you died in your sleep. Mental health has to come first

She enjoys her job. It connects her to the outside world. Benefits would be a short term gain for longer term pain. She would just end up never going back and never seeing anybody.

Please contact your GP, you don’t have to find the solutions all on your own, there is support available.

Another one feeling the same op. Sending love. I can't go as ds needs me. I hope things get easier for us

Wanting to die or be in hospital just to escape means you’re overwhelmed, not weak.
You deserve a break and support without getting physically worse please speak to a doctor about stress or mental health leave.

I have felt like that on-and-off for a long time. I’ve been on a new AD for six weeks now and feel so different, with some hope for the future. So don’t despair, things can change.

I think you should tell your GP how you’re feeling and try some anti-depressants. They can really take the edge off.

If you’re full of horrible thoughts in bed try an ear pod in one ear playing an interesting podcast or YouTube video. That’s how I sleep every night, otherwise my brain starts thinking up worse case scenarios for no good reason.