Why am I feeling like this?

[Gardenfairy5551]

I've always been a anxious person, very introverted, but nowadays it's at its worse. Worst case scenario for everything, instrusive thoughts that spiral, I can't just set a thought aside I carry it all day, I can't enjoy what I do, my crafts and outdoor stuff because the thoughts linger, from worrying about close ones dying, to my children, things happening around me I have no control over, I know bad things are going to happen in my life.. but instead of dealing with that when it happens it's like I'm preparing for it all the time, like I cant allow myself to be to happy... Whenever I have felt happier before something crap has happened so now I am just really guarded I honestly can't explain it.

I feel so heavy everyday, like a black cloud over me. I did contact drs last year and got out on setraline had awful side effects and came off... I am on a waiting list for therapy but it's nowhere close to happening

I know no one can wave a magic wand at me but has anyone else felt like this

I'm wondering if it's hormone related? I just want to be present with my kids constantly feel guilty for my mind being elsewhere..worrying about stuff

Thanks in advance sorry if this made absolutely no sense

There are other meds than just sertraline. Ask if you can try a different one.

@Inopensight not many friends, I work part time and I have a partner of 15 years

How long were you on sertraline? The side effects are hard for the first few weeks, but the right medication is life changing. Can you speak to your GP about trying another AD?

3 months I was on setraline

Hi op
Sorry you’re feeling lik this. I came in to say I’ve been feeling exactly lik this. I was on Sertraline for 6 years, low dose and it helped. But it seemed to stop working, and I’m now on escitalopram. That’s making me feel worse though as it seems to agitate me.
Im suffering from unwanted overthinking about anything and everything that could go wrong. Often about people’s feelings about me. It’s awful isn’t it?
I am planning to see a psychologist for cbt and I think you could ask for another medication that might suit you better.
What help are you able to access. Can you talk to anyone in your life about it. Talking it through can ease it a bit x

Sorry, just seen you’re on a waiting list for therapy. Could you afford to pay for a few private sessions?

Can you remember when this started? Was/are your parents the same?

Catastrophizing is the mind's way of trying to prepare for every possible outcome in every situation, which is as exhausting as it is fruitless. It's a protection mechanism but it's necessary and it can be resolved or managed.

My parents are quite anxious about things like work and money but not like me.
I’m going to switch back to the Sertraline as I think it helped more with my spiralling thoughts.
Could you message me to chat more? I’m not sure if I can initiate messaging. But I can receive them. So can then reply to you