Mental health crisis

[BonjourPetitPois]

I can’t really believe I’m writing this, I feel like this is an out of body experience and it’s not my life. But for the past month or so I have been struggling with a huge wave of anxiety, triggered by a severe case of chickenpox in my DD which has led to what is probably going to be permanent facial scarring. I haven’t been able to get over the feelings of guilt for it and it’s eating me alive.

I was signed off work for 3 weeks and due to go back today, but after the worst night where I honestly felt like I couldn’t go on and had serious dark thoughts, I have contacted work and said I’m not ready and am waiting for a call back from my GP. I have self referred to the talking therapy service, who have put me onto a managing anxiety course (not sure that’s going to do much good). I think the next step is going to be medication. I think I’m going to have to pay for some private therapy at this rate.

I just can’t see a way through this. The children have gone to my mums for a few days for half term but I don’t know how I’m going to function when they get back. My poor DH is trying to support me but he is out of his depth with this too. I just don’t know what I can do to feel better about this.

Look you weren’t to know how severe the chicken pox was going to be in her.. parenting doesn’t give you a crystal ball.. we’re just humans minding humans and will make mistakes and muddle along the best we can..
Bloody anxiety is a nuisance but loads of us get it.. I tried yoga, Excercise- hill walking is free, my faith in God helps.. writing it all down and asking myself to identify what’s true, and what’s fear.. cause paper doesn’t judge you.. and you can burn it after
St Johns Wort worked for me for a while.. but now I’m in ecitoprazolam from my GP. And that works a treat..
If you have other kids who haven’t had chickenpox, look into giving them the vaccine as I know an unfortunate family whose kid got sepsis from it..

Op similar thoughts but with an indent on ds forehead. Convinced myself its a skull fracture and I didnt take him to a&e at the time. Been checked since but the guilt i live with is horrendous. Its awful and I feel for you

Oh and the local colleges are doing free level 2 childhood illness courses if you want to learn about the others, as information and knowledge and facts, beat anxiety everyday..

Hi. Did you mean escitalopram? I’ve been taking it for 5 weeks now and still feel anxious. How long did it take to fully work for you?

I had a big chicken pox scar on my head for a few years as a kid, can't remember when it disappeared but before teenage years.

You're stressed and understandably anxious but it'll get better and then you'll look back and wonder why you were so upset.