I feel like an alien at work team meetings, struggling to talk and get my point across. I’ve always struggled with anxiety since leaving school (bullied) and now I’m in my mid 50s there’s been an occasional bullying incident as an adult. People don’t seem to like me. Some people do, of course, but I’m hopeless with anyone in management. I find it difficult to join in large conversations, not knowing when to speak so say nothing. I often feel like an idiot. I hate Teams meetings to, and feel like an awkward baboon.
I seem to unintentionally pee some people off as I’m not very good at talking. Also I can forget words, so lose my confidence in joining in.
Im so sad right now and don’t know what to do.