I had 10 sessions of therapy after a 2 year wait, during which I made some life changes that helped my mental health anyway so I was in a better place starting it than I was when referred. It was a mix of EMDR and some talking about my mum/interpersonal skills. All of it was really useful and whilst I wouldn't say I enjoyed going because I don't like talking about myself, and logistically it was hard to fit in, I was pleased I was going.
The sessions came to an end yesterday and I thought I was fine but I've been absolutely bawling my eyes out ever since I left and can't work out exactly why.
The therapist I had was male and not a lot older than me which probably didn't help as I've got form for attaching to men that show me even a tiny bit of kindness and he's probably the only male that's ever shown me any real compassion or understanding, so that was a new experience. Also I feel quite a lot of regret that I didn't reveal the full extent of my difficulties and adopted a businesslike 'nothing to see here ' approach to it.
It just feels like a sort of really deep grief that I finally had someone who was willing to listen to and understand me, and now all of a sudden I don't, and I feel totally and utterly alone. I'm not sure what I'm really asking here, suppose just if anyone else has experienced similar and how to deal with it/did it go away?