Just lately I’ve been feeling so unhappy in life with my partner and struggling with neurodivergent children and working nights!
I have been with my partner 13years and the last few years I just haven’t wanted to be in the relationship we generally get along although he is not the easiest person to be around he will continuously go out of his way to annoy me and do things to make me angry like winding me up all the time and call it banter even though I’ve asked him to stop a million times, he barely helps with our children and he’s very short tempered with them which really infuriates me. He’s been caught out messaging other women on several occasions and I have buried it deep within to keep our family a unit. I work nights doing 12 hr shifts I get home get our kids up take them to school sleep for 4ish hours then pick them up after school tidy, do dinner then set off to work again whilst also helping my partner do the admin for his own company. I am really struggling because I feel like I’ve asked for help a million times his family tells him he needs to help and it just falls on deaf ears. We barely are intimate and if we are it’s always focused on his needs and not mine and is the same every single time because there is some incompetence.
I’m just feeling like this relationship isn’t serving anymore and I feel so unfulfilled with him and in life I have no local family and work nights which is probably why I am still with him paralysed in misery because I would have no one to look after my kids while I’m a work.
i spend all my time with my kids when I I’m not working because I don’t feel like I see them a lot during the week and I’ve lost all of my friends since being in this relationship so I’m isolated anyway.
i know the right thing to do would be to leave but I can’t afford to leave my job and work days as I would be earning half the money I earn now and couldn’t survive on it.
i just feel like I’m stuck with no options out of this miserable life I’ve chosen and I’ve been in this relationship since I was 19 and feel like I’ve changed so much as a person and I know deep down this isn’t what I want out of life I just don’t know what to do