I don't think I've ever posted in this section before. I woke at 4am with a panic attack, The constant pain is getting me down, the worry and the stress. i feel stressed, like a band that is pulled to feel stretch

[saltire]

I used to get them quite frequently. I increased my ADs from 20mg to 50mg a couple of weeks ago. I feel really stressed and crying and my pulse keeps racing.

I am worried about my mum, she's not been too wel, and I live 7 hours away.
I'm worried about money. My tennant left a text message last night (late) saying she could only afford to give us £20 of rent this week as she is skint! I felt like saying so am I, I rely on your £55 a week for food shopping. The mortgage gets paid at the start of the month, and then her rent goes in weekly! I am calling the letting people this morning, she can't just change the rent.
DH needs petrol for work, we need food, there is nothing in the house and I have £32 to cover food and petrol until next friday - if the tennant doesn't pay the full rent tomorrow.
I have had a headache/migraine for almost a week now, and been getting them on andoff for about a month.
I am facing a disciplinary at work becasue i have had 5 days off in 7 months.
There, is aid it all. I can't discuss things with DH, sometimes I feel he doesn't lsiten. he thinks I don't do enough to help the pain, that I should be banging on the door of the physio, pain clinic etc and demanding to be seen

(((Saltire)))

OK, first of all - trip to Doctor. Could the jump have been too great with the ADs, causing you to get a bit 'wired'?

Also, ADs won't take away the natural, correct reaction of stresses around you. So, it is normal to get stressed if you only have £32 to get you through.

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First of all saltire, a ((hug)).

Panic attacks are so scary and always seem so much worse in the wee hours of the morning when there is no one about to help you.
I think your tenant is well out of order. The deal is that she gets to stay in your house for £55 a week not £20. If she cannot pay then rent the house to someone who can.
Could DH car share/get a lift to work? He sounds all stressed too and maybe feels upset to see you in pain. Men can clam up when they don't know what to do for best. (sorry for the sweeping generalisation but )

Can you speak to your GP or CPN about how anxious you feel plus a visit to Citizen's Advice might point you in the right direction re your tenant. She has quite a nerve to change the rent!
Would your DH be able to tell her that her rent is £35 short and to stop her nonsense ?

Is there any way you could get up to see your Mum ? I know things are tight for you but would your Mum be able to help you with a bus ticket ?

Sorry if this is a bit woolly but I just wanted to let you know that you are not on your own.

Could you apply for a crisis loan from the Jobcentre? It is interest free, and is given when there is a risk to health or safety. Not having food would qualify. Go to www.jobcentreplus.gov.uk.

Thanks everyone.
I was a CM until I moved from Scotland last year. I have had to go through the whole training and everything again. In the meantime though I needed a job and have been wroking part time as a shop assistant
I really only take the ADs (amitriptyline) 20mg at night for pain , well to help me sleep which in turn makes the pain slightly eaier to cope with. I increased the dose myself because I was feeling really low, I don't have a CPN, as I'm not technically classed as being depressed. In fact I don't actually feel depressed, just really stressed, and I'm sure that is what has caused the headaches

Saltire, i've not posted here before but wanted to respond after reading yours. I feel exactly how you're feeling. I wake up at 2 and at 4 with a racing heart and scared about everything: health, dying, money, job, mortgage, etc. i used to feel better as the day went on but now it's carrying on into the day. i don't have headaches like you but have had an ongoing sore throat that i've seen gp about 4 times but can't get rid of it (even had blood test - normal), so think that may be related to this stress. I've been referred to a counsellor and gp wanted to put me on ad's but i'm anxious about those. However, I feel like i'm going to explode with this heart racing and my head feels cloudy today, i'm not sure I can get over this without help, i can't go on like this. and I don't want it to affect my poor children (ages 2.5 and 9 mos)- am horrible mum that can't even handle myself through stress. should i go on pills? am i unrealistic to think this will go away on its own? what do you do in the middle of the night when you wake up terrified where this is all going to lead? sorry to have poached your post but your story sounded familiar I didn't know I'm not alone. hugs back to you.

Why a disciplinary with 5 days off in 7 months? Seems a bt far fetched to me.

I was on amitriptiline, and have bought the dose down to 25mg. It made me unbearably paranoid and is known for this. Not just in thinking that everyone was against me, but being really anxious about my health and situation. I wonder if it is anything to do with it........

((((((((Saltire)))))))))))