Anyone starting antidepressants in the new year and want to chat / keep me company

[Newyearsparkle]

I'm on my second day of escitalopram..I'm taking it at night 5 mg.
I think I've been very depressed for many years and I'm not convinced this will work.
But hay ho ,give it a go

Keep going @Newyearsparkle you are doing so well 💐

I’m taking 10mg of Citalopram down from 20mg, really helped me at the start, changed my life and calmed me down. I started taking them for anxiety, five years ago. Have gone back up to 20mg and come down again twice in that time, I seem to remember being very tired in the first week but it soon disappeared.

Yes ,it says on line that is what is causing the pain ,and lots of antidepressants can cause this side effect
It is very encouraging to hear it does go

Well I did take it at 6 pm as per usual, despite saying I wasn't going to earlier.
Of all the possible side effects... I was prepared for feeling sick and brain zaps and willing to work through that
But I have awful health anxiety around my teeth ,I've had some dreadful experiences at the dentist.
But anyway
Onwards for tomorrow..for now

Unfortunately anxiety is very bad currently,
But I suppose only a week in it's not going to improve yet

I quite enjoy the brain zaps. It feels like I am disconnected from reality in a nice way

I've not had any yet ..just the teeth issues,
But I am prepared for them

So I went chat GDP and basically it said I'm not depressed and what I want escitalopram to do for me ,it won't do .
So I don't know weather to come of it and accept what my usual doctor says ,which is. I'm not depressed,it's just autism

I wish I'd just persevered with propanol for the anxiety

So I’ve now increased to 10mg started back very slowly to ease side effects and yes even on a low 2.5mg and 5mg I’ve had some side effects altho manageable with nausea appetite loss mild anxiety I’ve now been on 10mg 7 days and still having side effects the past couple of days I’ve felt very low and flatt heightened anxiety on a morning the leading in to the rest of the day it does ease and I have a glimmer of peace for a couple hours I no all this is normal as I’ve been on them before it’s just not a nice feeling but they do pass when having crap days I get the thoughts that I’ll never get better or I’ll never feel enjoyment or be social again but I no I will I’ve been there before and won I’ll do it again and possibly never come of them. I keep telling my self better days are coming and can’t wait for the spark to be back altho I have had a few days over the 4 weeks of feeling good then bang back to square one which is also normal I’m staying on 10mg for a good few week to see if it makes a difference as recovery is possible on 10mg if not I will increase again slowly

How are you getting on now @Newyearsparkle?

I came of the escitalopram on 10 January..
Lots of side effects while on them ,that I did a spread sheet thing of on my phone ,which helped me realise I was worse on them ,than trying to manage anxiety of them .
So I'm taking 3 propropnal a day now to try to manage anxiety that way .
Chat gtp was a massive help organising my thoughts and stopping the looping in my brain.i got my self in a right state struggling to make a decision on what to do .but once I was of them ,I felt immediately better mentally and I'm happy with my decision