Im so sick of feeling sad

[Annon224485]

I don’t know the point to this post I’m just so sick and tired of feeling sad and trying not to cry. Hiding in rooms in the house away from everyone else so I don’t have to communicate with anyone avoiding people and plans and just over whelming sadness and emptiness. It’s due to relationship issues partners depression and also supporting my2 best friends through mental breakdowns this year one ending up in hospital so I can’t talk to them about my problems as I feel it’s nothing compared to what they are going through and I’m trying to be strong for them. I’m just so bloody sick of being sad and not being able to enjoy life all the happiness feels sucked away and I’m so lonely but also don’t want to see anyone I’m hoping counselling will help but not taken the plunge yet

Well animals don’t judge, or mind how you’re feeling.. can u walk your neighbours dog to get out in nature? Plant some bulbs and watch them grow.. the dog helps me when I’m lonely.. please God 2026 will bring a better time for you.. rambling groups are great cause you don’t have to talk all the time and happy hormones release while your walking..

empathic people can get burnout.. find your healing corners..

I have a dog and do a lot of walking I think I’ve tried so hard to push these feelings back and power on through life like I’m fine and I’m really not fine I feel like I need to go and get drunk or smoke or do something to release this sadness but I can’t and won’t as I have children and I don’t drink or smoke but I just feel like I’ve been pushed to the extremes I think I’m depressed but I won’t take medication as I’ve seen the awful affects it can have I just don’t want to feel so consumed by sadness and pointlessness

You have obviously tried and tried to get yourself out of this depression but sometimes mental strength and determination just isn’t enough on its own.
Why not try the AD and see how you get on? What’s the worse that could happen?

Suicide . Someone in my family tried to commit suicide a few times as a side affect from taking the ADs

It sounds like you're having a really hard time. Go easy on yourself, you're being a great support for everyone around you, but you matter too. Reach out and start therapy if you can. I found starting the hardest step but it's so worth it

Fair enough, that is a small risk but you are sick of feeling sad and it clearly isn’t through lack of trying on your part.
Sorry you are struggling so much, I get it.

Would counselling help? https://www.top10.com/online-therapy/rotw-comparison?utm_source=google&kw=affordable%20therapy&c=657840645101&t=search&p=&m=b&adpos=&dev=m&devmod=&mobval=1&network=g&campaignid=20098365288&adgroupid=147565813823&targetid=kwd-295709861900&interest=2826&physical=9192621&feedid=&a=7973&ts=Affordable&topic=&gender=&age=&agerange=&audience=&camtype=ps&gad_source=1&gad_campaignid=20098365288&gbraid=0AAAAAC1TRR8iRAnmiR0Mk5naoNbljs0Lf&gclid=Cj0KCQiAsNPKBhCqARIsACm01fQ0nuqSBft550GhNzgOpXTsQsADtqng6bzfunlQ6oHnQIZg94cCY00aAkZeEALw_wcB

Oh op I’m the same with the sadness - it’s horrible isn’t it - I take everything so seriously

please do get AD help - tell them about your fear re suicidal thoughts - they work differently for everyone and could be absolutely life changing for you

Smoking or getting drunk won’t relieve the sadness it will intensify it

think about the suicide attempts - they were unsuccessful attempts - how long ago? Talk to your GP and weigh it up - they could be so helpful

It might be a bit of trial and error finding the right counsellor for you OP, or you might click with someone straight away. But once you find that therapist they are a valuable resource to you from week to week, someone to build a relationship with unlike any other relationship in your life - because they focus solely on your needs and feelings and gradually help you move through that sadness safely. Having them thinking about you and what you need could also be very supportive of trying medication.

I'm a counsellor myself but I still have my own therapy because that relationship and the space it gives me each week is essential for me to process the stuff I need to.

Go see ur gp a small dose of 10mg of Citalopram saved my life !!

I can understand your concerns, but lots of people take them and they help them rather than make it worse.
I have found them hugely beneficial alongside exercise and other things that help me. They allow me to see the wood for the trees (take edge off stuff)

I have become too invested in others' issues in the past and it has done my own MH worse. I have had to take steps back . You can not pour from an empty cup x