Me and my husband currently have a good marriage. However, there are things he has done in the past that I cannot forgive. I sometimes forget about them but soon as I’m on low mood, they appear. Eg, when I was 3 months pregnant, over something silly we had attitude towards each other. In the morning I felt mild pain wanted to go A&E, my MIL was at mine and she said go with your husband. Since he saw me getting ready and wasn’t talking to me prior to that I said it’s fine I’ll go by myself. She insisted but he didn’t make a move. So I left. Throughout the whole journey I was hoping he’d come, and I cried the while time I was in A&E for straight 4 hours! I was more devastated that I couldn’t control my emotions and they were traumatising my babe and that guilt made me feel more upset. I’ve never cried so deep and so much in my entire life. You know how you’d get tired from crying or you would want to cry but can’t, this was nothing like it. I went out to get myself something and when I returned he was there so he never saw my state. When we went to ultrasound room, I saw my baby for the first time and apparently after I got up he wanted to hug me but my face didn’t look welcoming and hence why he never held my hand going home too. Few days later, I sent him a long paragraph as he was going on a work trip saying this is how you made me feel then, but now I don’t feel as harsh or emotional. His literal reply was, his done and I can go back to my mums. So I left… For nearly 2 weeks, he made me go through so much shit. Thinking about it now, I find it silly because I can now interpret that it was my hormones playing but what was his problem?! Especially when he claims that his a caring responsible man who knows about women’s mood, hormones etc. Where was my support? Thinking about this incident my first instinct is to divorce him and on the other hand I’m like am I gonna be happier with that decision. No matter how much we speak about this problem, I never feel remorse from him. He never truly apologises or feels guilty etc. Like we don’t have any problem at the moment, we go on holidays etc but is that what marriage really is, holding on to superficial memories trying to toss a feeling that still hurts you. 4 years its been, and I still feel it like yesterday…