To share a crap poem

[Booksandsea]

im sorry i drink too much
I dont think you know that I hate me more than you do-
all of them too- still mine.
I love you but I’ve never been enough
All the dramas all that’s been so tough
My childhood I wasn’t 10/10, but too fat, to shy
Always hiding, always serving
Never enough
Hiding in my wardrobe
Hiding in my fat
Hiding in my shyness
Hiding in me
Forgotten who I was
I’m going

Are you ok??

I'm sorry for that unpleasant first reply to your post. It sounds as though you're going through a tough time, and Christmas tends to make things worse when you are already down.

I hope you have someone in real life you can reach out to for help and that 2026 is a better year for you.

It reads to me like you are looking for some help. I am hoping Mumsnet may come along with some helpful suggestions.

thia can be a very hard time of year and I think no emotions should be allowed to drive decisions and how you feel about yourself at the moment. Please try to get some sleep and see how you feel tomorrow. You are not defined by your previous choices or alcohol - you can make changes and remember how to love yourself

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek real-life help and support as well.

We'e moving this over to our mental health topic now.