The last ten years have been a bit crap.
6 friends have passed away. 2 of sons friends took their own lives. Son had a breakdown.
Both my mum and dad needed care and have sadly now died . Mum around this time of year 2 years ago. I have a brother and sister but they never helped.
Husbands father then died.
My best friend has incurable cancer and is really ill.
Ive retired due to ill health myself . Ive always hated work anyway so it was no big deal.I did it to earn money and nothing else if I'm honest.
Today has been hard . My family don't care. I know my husband feels something is up but I just cant talk about things with him anymore.He keeps asking
He sees death differently than me. He believes we will all see eachother again. He never cried over his dad.
I feel unappreciated and disrespected by most people.
Everything I say to my adult son is either patronised or contradicted so Ive just stopped talking so much .
Ive got a holiday coming up which I'm looking forward to but very little else.
I'm going through the motions today but can feel I'm shaking with nerves.
I know this all sounds self pitying and weird but I feel I'm going to crack