mental health are coming to see me in half hour.

[copingvquietly]

anyone fancy holding my hand till they get here?this is the first visit and im scared.

ooh stroppy,
changing name to stroppingcquietly?
So did they talk through things with you yesterday?

crap.made a right arse of myself.two panic attcks and was sick while they were here.they went all through my history.hmm nice.its no bloody secret anymore i selfharm and ive got to keep a diary of how im feeling when this happens.not sure theres enough fucking paper for that one.yeah so i need cbt which ill look forward to.oh and ive got post traumatic stress.that didnt take a genius.oh and to round things off ive got agoraphobic tendancies.i think thats enough for now?
so yes im a fucking basket case who needs locking up!happy tuesday!

But it is all sortable cvq. Being angry about it all is healthy you know.

I found going through everything such a horrible experience, I haven't talked about it all out loud and it just was horrid!
are they coming back to see you again?

im being seen again on thursday.oh and ive got a special number to call if i have a crisishow lovely!

Brilliant that you are getting support.
It isn't an immediate solution but it is the beginning.. I promise..

cvq - you didn't make an arse of yourself. You have been through a hell of a lot, it will be understandable in the eyes of the mental health people and other professionals that you may be like this.

Please give yourself some credit for getting help.

i know.sorry.im just very mad with the world today.thankyou

No need to be sorry

I don't have much experience of this kind of thing but wouldn't it have been a bigger problem if you had sat in front of them, perfectly polished, knitting your own yoghurt whilst typing your dissertation? Isn;t it better that they see the problem? I've seen other threads where people have complained that they weren;t bad enough to get help, just because they were having a good half hour

Sorry that comment isn't really much help is it?

im now wondering how you knit yoghurt?maybe that could be one of my new distraction techniques?but yes i get what you are saying but tbh i could have done without the attacks and sick.its embarressing.

I'm sure they've seen it all before. Don't forget that they are trained in and used to dealing with people in your situation. No need to be embarrassed.

Taking the first step is always the hardest thing to do. Here's hoping it will get easier from here on in

All the labels that they have given you - it may seem obvious to you, us and them that you have PTSD but until they give it a name and officially declare that it is so, they can't start to help you. Don't worry about the words they use - just concentrate on getting the best out of the help they can now give you.

Well done for getting help. Am a MH nurse so can assure you that the team you saw will not be there to judge, but to help. However, can see it from your pov too as have been on the other side of the table and it is not pleasant at all. Have learned that there are good professionals and bad ones. There are also a range of therapies so don't give up hope if CBT doesn't help (though it is very good and helps a lot of people). When things are more settled for you, the MH team will hopefully work with you on a crisis plan so that you get to recognise the early warning signs and can get help before things escalate. Good luck. How old is you little one?

am having a very mixed day today.was very angry earlier which is now turning into something im trying to fight.my son is nearly 7 months.

When you feel out of control it's normal for your feelings to fluctuate from anger to hopelessness. MH issues aside, caring for a 7 month baby is extremely demanding anyway as they are totally dependent on you. You are doing a great job being able to feed, change, clothe and love him but you need support too. Aside from MH team, do you have close friends, family or a partner who can support you through this?

I'm sure it was embarassing and lord knows I've done my share of embarassing things in my time but thankfully none of them really have much significance in the long run do they.

Will try to find a "knit your own yoghurt" recipe for you

Hoping for a better day today for you cvq

not a good but not a bad day.went to counselling.had an incident and came home againbut i have been 'good' today if you know what i mean?so far so good.thankyou for caringx

hi coping just spotted this in active convos, I posted for you on the other thread. How you doing?

im alright.ive got wine

still here coping?