Just so overwhelmed

[lorisparkle]

i just don’t know what to do
i just want to escape my life but can’t
I can not leave my children and parents but feeL completely ‘stuck’
i hate my job - completely overwhelmed by it - but the pay is good and I can not afford a lower salary
i don’t want to go off sick again - I want to see it through but the anxiety is returning
I am on duloxetine for anxiety and depression, HRT (but struggling to absorb oestrogen) and propranolol for migraines.
challenges with home and family and Christmas are adding pressure
the coulds and shoulds are mounting
i I am getting negative intrusive thoughts again

dont knowing why I am posting - just want to off load

You can't leave your children, I get that. But why can't you 'leave' your parents?

OP you are not the first and certainly won’t be the last to feel this way. I am a sufferer too and I know the exact way you’re feeling, sometimes it can feel like you’re the only person in the world who feels this bad, you’re not. What helps me is simply taking it one day at a time, so right now just think about today, you’ll go to bed soon. If you can’t sleep then don’t worry, it will come, and at least you can lay there without having to do anything.
This time of the year causes a lot of distress, ignore the adverts, the fake beds in social media, everything’s got their demons.
I would go to the docs if you can and ask if you can try another medication alongside what you’re on. I take 2 types, and I think they compliment each other well. Get out for a walk tomorrow if you can.
I know what you mean about intrusive thoughts, just label the thought and think “ah it’s that one again, I forgot about that before it came along again”. Take the pressure off yourself, it’s okay to not feel okay. Take care, you’ve got this x

Fakeness that should say!