Anxiety/stress/lost

[mumoftwoboys321]

So I finally went to the doctors today as life and everything that’s happened this year.
turns out I’m incredibly stressed (knew that already) slightly low mood and she think anxiety didn’t know the end one.
things have been not right for a while and a lot has happened this year that has knocked me for 6 having said things out loud to someone has really hit home today and probably made things make sense but it’s also caused me to question everything.
I suppose I’m writing on here as it’s easier to jot down and put it out there to an unknown face.
I always thought I was on top of things like my feelings my emotions I like to deal with things on my own and always have so today was a new one for me and my doctor has been great and given me some useful reading material and talked through some of the things we spoke about she wants me to do counselling which I’m not so keen on but will give it a try, the thought of letting everything out of my head that has played a part in destroying my peace terrifies me,
I just want to feel like me again and wondered if there’s any tips to help me on my way,

A couple of things you’ve said suggest you’re repressing your feelings (unconsciously blocking them) rather than being ‘on top of’ your feelings. This causes all sorts of symptoms like depression, anxiety and stress.

Counselling sounds like a good idea. It will help you realise what your feelings are (bring them into conscious awareness) and help you respond to them better within yourself, so your symptoms will lift.

At first it feels like emptying a messy sock drawer the the air - scary and messy. But as you sort through things, pair them up, put them back in the drawer neatly, things will start to feel better.

@Lemonsugarpancakes I like the sock analogy, I might borrow that one day 😉

@mumoftwoboys321

I always thought I was on top of things like my feelings my emotions I like to deal with things on my own Might be worth thinking about why you like to deal with things on your own – when did you decide this was a good way to be? (it's not right or wrong BTW).