Health issues/wanting to work depressed - long

[Imdepressed]

Before I start, I know I shouldn't moan. There are people worse off than me. But I can't help how I am feeling.

I don't know where to start. Sorry it's long.

I have been off work for a few years now due to some health issues I have. I wasn't able to keep my job as I struggled going in because of the health issues.

I have been feeling down because I can't contribute financially to the household income. We are doing okay but I know how much better it would be if I had a full time income too.

I feel like I'm letting the whole family down.
I hate that when something goes wrong we have to ask parents to help us financially because we can't afford to fix it ourselves.

I'm done with the house we are in, we can't afford to do it up. It's falling apart, we have outgrown it. I want to move out of the area.

Although worried I can't keep a job down as I need to rest a lot, I saw a job going, WFH which would be perfect for me as it would be okay for me to do with my health issues and is flexible. On paper I was perfect as I had done the job before I got ill. Had the interview and yesterday told that I didn't get it. I think my nerves got the better of me as I really wanted this job.

I feel so stuck. I am desperate to move on in life. I have been in tears since the rejection.
I can't get an office job. It would have to be a WFH job. We only have one car and someone needs to pick up the kids. Husband works from home so we could have taken it in turns to pick up the kids.

Having to get public transport would take a toll on me.

My last job I asked if I could work from home and they rejected me. After leaving everyone got to work from home. I can't help think I could still be in work if they let me WFH. I could rest during the breaks etc.

My mental health has dipped, i don't know what to do. I am getting therapy but for a different mental health situation.

I don't want to spend the rest of my life doing nothing. People say to me how I'm lucky I'm not working. I'm not working because I have to rest during the day. I struggle. I would love to work.
I feel like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.

Part time work wouldn't benefit us. I need a job to get us a better house and a better life.

I feel completely and utterly useless. It's embarrassing to say I don't work when people ask. I want to feel important and have that sense of pride when you have a job etc that I used to have.

Keep trying, keep applying for those roles and you’ll get there. Sorry you didnt get this job, it’s quite usual to not be successful for every job you go for so factor that In the next time. There are plenty of roles offering WFH now and lots of companies who will give you a guaranteed interview if you are disabled.

good luck and keep going

I haven't worked for 7 yrs due being a single Mum and caring responsibilities. I also have health issues of my own. I felt like you, not contributing to society etc. So, I applied to be a volunteer for a few hours a week. I've also just today been offered a p/t paid job, yey!
I feel like this is perfect for me as it will help me build up my stamina, give me some self esteem. Also, when the time is right, I could take on more hours, depending on how my health holds up.
Do you think this is something you could do? Build up to it, something recent to put on your CV.