I'm wishing my life away

[topcat2014]

Objectively my life is ok, first world probs and all that. But.. I wake up every day at about 430am, get to work for 8, bored already. I'm just looking forward to seeing DD next Sunday. Can't think about Christmas or holidays. I seem to want to rush through time and get it over with. I started wondering what it would be like to be a grandparent yesterday.

I also think what passed for a senior career is behind me, at 54.

It's probably just age. Maybe hormonal, (but in my case male).

We stopped drinking, but maybe that has sacked the joy out of life.

I'm easily bored outside of work but also get nervous before doing hobbies..

Not really sure what the question is!

all these kind of thoughts are normal - there are times when life is quiet and it can be nice to imagine other stages of life or ways of organising your time

would it help to deliberately slow down and enjoy things in the present - take 10 mins to really appreciate a nice coffee or the view from a hill or gentle rain or whatever.

are you in any community groups? volunteering can be very rewarding and easier to engage with than 'hobbies'

I think it’s just middle age! It’s a time of transition for both males and females. Don’t really have any advice but as a childless female in my 50s I relate to this. I could talk about counselling and practicing a form of mindfulness and pushing yourself to do things and volunteering and all this has helped me but underneath there’s this ennui so I think it’s just a stage in life and that stage will change in time if we are lucky enough to keep living!

Why do you get nervous before doing hobbies? It is the fear of the unknown or something else?

I'm 8 years older than you and in the last three months have got majorly into the gym and deadlifting, as a complete beginner. We're lucky to live in a world where age is only an issue if you believe it to be.

I'm not sure. Almost like I want everything to be over. Feels like a loss of confidence somehow.