I am extremely up and down at the moment about this. Part of me is rational the other part isn’t. I am waiting for a GP appointment to discuss the possibility I might be bipolar. A close family relative is so I want to rule out this being a factor.
My boss will be retiring at some point nothing set in stone, but she has been making a lot of noise about it. The company wanting to make provision employed a FT person to join our department. This lady is likely to take over from my boss. Although I’m getting mixed messages about this.
I was asked if I would be interested in my boss’ role. I am very low in confidence. I know I’m capable but I don’t feel able to step into her role. That’s very much my problem. I’m having counselling to get over past trauma which unfortunately is not helping.
The lady they have employed is nice but does not have anywhere near the experience necessary. She seems switched on though, so I’m sure eventually she could do the role.
I feel upset though because she now sits at my desk. I am having to hot desk. There isn’t enough work for three of us. I have had chats with management about what other tasks I can help with. I feel unsettled and really don’t want to stay. I’m actively looking for a new job, but there isn’t much around. I just feel unhappy with the situation and with myself. I really don’t want to go in today.