Struggling with motherhood

[pinkflower223]

My baby is five months old and I’m really struggling to cope with it all, he’s started teething and just generally becoming a lot more irritable and fussy and I’m having a really hard time with it, I feel like I struggle to bond with him sometimes I love him loads but when he’s screaming and crying constantly I honestly think to myself as horrible as it sounds what have I done, I have mum guilt to the extreme I feel guilty for absolutely everything, if he’s watching tv to long, if he’s in rocker to long, if I can’t soothe him, am I not hugging him enough? I just feel really bad at this, I don’t feel like I’m very maternal or it comes natural to me at all, I feel like I see all these women who are completely besotted and having a great time and it was the best thing that ever happened to them and I just don’t feel that way, he’s great but I just don’t know what’s wrong with me

Get to the GP firstly

Secondly, babies are shit before 6 months. I don't know why people like them really. They do get better. By 8-9 months you get more response from them. 18 months they are cracking. What I mean is that this will not be your life forever, probably just a few weeks! If you haven't got one, get a sling and narrate your life to them at this point as you walk around. Get out and about. And don't feel bad about going back to work now if that's what works for you.

Please don't be so hard on yourself. Having a new baby is a huge change and challenge. It does get better, I promise. I found with mine, they had 6 week cycles - you’d just think you were getting to grips with it then something else would change (teething/sleeping/illness etc)
Book an appt to see your GP and tell them how you're feeling. Make sure you leave there satisfied that they are helping in some way x