Medical trauma?

[Medi8989]

Hi all

At the weekend I was extremely unwell. In Resus.
I was having a severe asthma attack
They gave me nebulisers back to back. IV paracetamol, IV magnesium, Oral morphine (was having severe chest pain from fast HR), 2 bags of fluid, oxygen and steroids.
My lactate was very high etc etc
They alerted ICU and got their advice but thankfully I avoided it, just.

I was discharged home and just feel dumped. Like I can't quite explain the feeling. I actually felt a massive sense of doom at the time. I could hear all the machines beeping and my oxygen was dropping. I thought I was going to die and sent my texts saying I love you to my husband and family. It was terrifying.

I realise I've made it out. But I feel so depressed. I was running on adrenaline for the day after but today I'm just so shut down but also anxious and trying to make some sort of sense of what happened.

They didn't explain anything to me just worked very quickly and then sort of booted me out.

Does anyone have any experiences or anything similar?
Is this a normal reaction to what happened? I don't want to see anyone, am snappy and anxious.

I'm waiting a call from an asthma nurse because I need some sort of de brief but even the thought of talking about it is making my heart race.

Thanks.

Given that it's so recent and fresh in your mind it would be weird if you weren't feeling all sorts of emotions now. Tell the asthma nurse what you've said her, hopefully they will be able to give you the information you need to help you process and come to terms with what happened.

Looks like this might be a good resource for you – https://www.asthmaandlung.org.uk/

You have been through something traumatic mentally and physically. You're not going to get over that in a few days. It's something you'll never forget now and your brain needs time to process it. Have you tried meditating or writing out in a journal how you feel about the experience, a full rest day of self care would be good too if you can get one - your favourite movie on, a bath, reading a book, a face mask etc just something that looks after you.