Going around in circles..... anyone else?

[Martha200]

Taking this time to sigh and sit down to share my thoughts.

I have NO reason to feel down, but I am, when I feel good, I feel good but when I feel crap I feel so crap!

Had PND with my first, so have been very alert to it this time around with my 20wk old. About a month ago I came to the conclusion with my GP I was not seriously depressed rather I was very anxious about the whole BFeeding thing and dealt with it. I had hoped things would improve from there, well they have but I feel so tired of the circle of feeling ok to deep low feelings.

I would never hurt my children, but am not being the best I can at times, e.g just taken ds1 to Mcdonalds as I can't be arsed to cook anything and let him spend some of his pkt money on sweets to eat all now I feel tired and fed up of my weight, I am trying to lose because I know it will help and am trying to be kind to myself by not beating myself up about it too much, but right now I feel so tired and not very motivated. My house is a mess, dh overseas at the moment and I should tidy before he gets back.

I am not sure if I should visit the Dr, but I am worried that I will appear fine when I go, by the time I make an appt I may well feel fine, but it's getting through these crap moments I find so hard

I feel like a yo yo I know it's normal to have a range of emotions, but it's this deep low feeling I get that bugs me, how can I improve?

You poor thing - feeling knackered and fed up. If its any concellation I think i feel similar to you sometimes!! Try not to feel guilty about your DS1 eating the odd Maccies, my DS1 and DD1 have one a week. And they have treats like chocolate or crisps nearly everyday.

Like you I feel utterly knackered sometimes, very unmotivated and a bit down inthe dumps. And my DH does not work oversees!! He is home every night, does no more hours than 37.5 hours!!

Could you get someone to mind the kids for a couple of hours while you make a start on tiying the house. i always find that when i have done the daunting task of starting, i feel better and more enthusiastic about carrying on the good work. Pick one room to start off tidying and cleaning. Once you've done one, the others won't be so daunting.

Don't feel you have to be perfect. Use the TV as a baby - sitter while you are very busy. Let your kids have a few treats and/or the odd Maccies while you are busy too.

Also just enjoy your kids - the house does'nt have to be really spick and span. get out with your kids for fresh air, exercise and day light - known to improve low mood.

When i get tired and overwhelmed i make sure i get a few really early nights, this helps so much.

Have you tried relaxation techniques? They are so good for rejuvinating yourself and help with anxiety. You can buy relaxation CDs in Waterstones. They help you feel less tired and ready to face what the day brings in view of looking after two children on your own, and get on with the extra bits of tidying your house.

Hope this helps!