Hello!,
I was recently put on sertraline, which gave me crazy daily panic attacks, heart palpitations, crippling anxiety (worse than the anxiety I had before starting it) and I felt like a zombie, my mind was so fuzzy, it got so bad my partner had to take 2 days off work to help with the kids while I recovered, any minor stress was sending me into a panic attack, full blown hyperventilating, crying, heart pounding, jaw chattering, awful.
They put me onto citalopram instead (which my docs now said they shouldn't have done, I should have rode out the sertraline as they both can cause anxiety at first, but now I've switched it's kind of reset, and now I'm getting use to this medication which I'm experiencing the initial anxiety from, but by now I could have been better and over that increased anxiety spell if I carried on the sertraline, annoying!)
Today, doctors prescribed with propranolol to tackle this bad anxiety while I'm experiencing it. I've had this before and it worked really well so happy to have that.
I guess I'm looking for advice, as my main concern here is my kids, I feel incredible guilt, today I took a turn on the citalopram (been taking it about the same amount of time that I went really bad on the sertraline), again I felt like I a zombie, crying, foggy headed, so tired, jaw chattering, butterflies and couldn't breathe properly. My partner had to take the morning off work to help with the kids and my dad came to help the rest of the time so he could go in.
My partner has been my rock, has taken over with the kids straight from getting home from work to let me rest through this, and when I'm really bad he has told me to go to bed and rest and taken over everything. I am truly blessed and grateful for him, but I'm just worried how this will effect the kids, as I've been a lot more absent the last few weeks then I ever have. Still the main parent most days while my partner goes to work, but when he's home I'm gone a lot to recover from the panic attacks and anxiety, and how tired it's all making me. (Again, my wonderful partner suggests I do this).
We have explained to them mummy's feeling abit poorly, but they're so young they of course can't fully understand why I'm away from them sometimes.
Has anyone else experienced this, am I wrong and should I just try harder and not have times of rest? Because that's what my head tells me. To just get over it and carry on, the kids are more important, these years of their life is more important and I feel like I'm damaging them by being away sometimes.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.