I think I am neurodiverse but don't have a diagnosis. I am in my 40s.
Our wonderful life has turned to shit. Out of nowhere my husband developed severe mental health issues, had to give up his job. Has massively affected our family and hes not the same person he once was.
My son has adhd , we have had school issues with him since the day he started age 4, hes now 15 and everything is spiraling. He hates school, is misbehaving more and more as can't cope with the stress of the gcse years, he has started puberty which has caused a massive personality change , hes angry and miserable and hates himself. He hates being at home with nothing to do as he says his mind starts to act crazy, so he goes out with friends all of the time. He literally just sleeps at home. If his friends aren't available he lies in bed staring at the ceiling all day in a bad mood. He is worrying me sick and I don't know what his future looks like at all.
My parents are both becoming frail and im an only child so everything falls to me .
I have other children too who I am fully responsible for as husband too poorly.
I work and can't hold a job. There is something wrong with me. I start a job and want to leave after the first few weeks. I seem to struggle with the most basic of workloads and get very stressed. My minds not on the job because of my worries at home. I have had 4 jobs in 2 years and have just quit my current one that was perfect hours and location. With no job to go to next and no idea what I will do for money. I darent even tell my family so I'm still going out every day and just sitting in the car!!!
I'm anxious all of the time, I can't sleep, I feel exhausted. I just want to run away from it all.
I don't know where to start as the issues are all too big