What is wrong with me?

[fazed]

I am in my early 40's and wonder if I am going through the menopause.

I just don't feel right.

I just seem to be getting by day by day and all I feel is anxiety about everything.

I have no motivation or desire to do anything.
I try my best for my childen but feel like a crap mother and often say to myself that I hate myself.

I want to feel better and not feel scared all the time.
I want to get up in the morning looking orward to the day and not dreading it,and dreading having to go out and face people.

I stood in the school playground today and was aware of the noise around me but just felt alone and panicky.

The idea of sex makes me feel guilty for some reason and it feels dirty to me .

I love my DH and children and want to be a proper mother and wife.

I lookaround me and wonder how people do it.
Manage to ve orgainised and look good and find the motivation to want to do things.

I have no pride in my apperance anymore and the house looks a mess and don't know what to do about it.

My whole life is spent with me feeling anxious all the time and worrying about what lies ahead.

I over protect my childen for fear of losing them and what to do more with them and take them places but my anxiey takes over everything.

I go to hang te washing out and a bird flying past wil make me jump.

I am on edge all the time.

My head feels fuzzy a lot of the time and can't sleepat night.

but then end up tired and grumpy the next day.

Just can't see a way out.

you sound as though you are suffering both anxiety and depression

there may be a hormonal reason or a chemical reason or a lifestyle reason

it owul d be worth seeing your gp who will probably do an online test with you to see if you are depressed or anbxious

You sound very on edge and tired to me. Can you get yourself on holiday and give yourself a break? Am sure you are lovely, but just a bit of a worrier. Write stuff down and read it later maybe? I am like bits of you (jumpy at things when tired/fuzzy) but don't beat myself up anymore. I am great, I really am! Say it before you go to sleep and when you wake up (american accent helps?!)
No idea about menopaues or peri menopause ?? symptoms, a doctor or NHS direct could help though.

Hello Zippitippy again. I really have to get to sleep now, should have gone ages ago!

PS fazed. Just little things at a time. If your house is a mess, you are gonna feel a bit bad. Just do a little bit a day and you will feel better, I promise!

Thanks for your replys.

I really should go to bed as well,will come back to this thread tomorrow.

Am a bit worried about going to my GP .

Is there an online test I could do?

well probably there is an online one i dont know where...i am not usre what the one the gps use is there are probably a few

it analyses from your responses the degree if any of a problem and divides it into anxiety and depression

seeing your gp doesnt mean you have to take medication you may get some advice and you may have menopause or thyroid problems anaemia etc etc

yes you and i should pronbably both go to bed